Having a long distance relationship can be very frustrating at times. Seeing each other every couple of weeks, long telephone calls, emails, and cards are the lifeblood that sustains two people living 190 miles apart for now. But my fiancee, Dawn, found a way to liven things up by sending me erotic audiotapes about her sexual escapades once or twice a month. Oh, we send general tapes to each other often to listen to while driving, but the "stories" are the ones I find so exciting. Each comes marked with a red 'X' on the label. They've become a part of my "jack-off" collection I listen to so intently when I'm missing the touch of her body.
A brief background of Dawn may be in order. She is an extremely attractive woman. Looking at her today is like being in a time warp. She still looks like the high school homecoming queen I knew then and I know it's not just me. Guys as young as 18 and 19 glance at her with flirtatious smiles. The photographs in my office and home, and the comments from others seeing them, attest to her youthful beauty. At 5-7, she has maintained her young cheerleader figure through the years keeping her weight at 120 with a strict diet and exercise regimen. Her reddish hair, now highlighted blonde, falls past her shoulders. Her eye color changes with the clothes she wears from light to deep-blue, and she has long, slender legs that just don't quit.
When we got together in September, 1999, a new world opened for both of us. For the first time we each had someone to confide our most secret fantasies in and we've had a chance to live some of them out since. The taped stories number approximately 30 and explore her many fantasies, including oral, anal, group, interracial, light bondage, bi-sexual interests, exhibitionism, and some others that don't really fit a category or are a combination of various interests. However, almost all have one common theme. Most involve some sort of nonconsent on her part. The tapes are fiction, or so she tells me, but some, I don't know. The places and names of people are known to me lending them a realistic flavor. I never question her about those particular stories, but sometimes I do wonder how much fact actually finds its way into the fiction.
It is her love for and pleasure she receives from performing oral sex that so intrigues me. Loving something jammed in a mouth, distorting the face, or making one feel like gagging are among those mysteries to me I will never comprehend, although she seems intent on me experiencing this some day. Of course, those are just my perceptions of a cock buried in a mouth. Don't misunderstand, I'm not complaining by any means. She has honed her oral artistry over the years to a point that would take any man on a deeply sensual, magical and mystical ride to a place I can't even begin to describe in a way that would do it justice.
The following is an excerpt of one such tape I suspect is more real than fiction.
"Honey, you know how much I love to suck cock. I didn't really get into it until Rick, you remember him from high school don't you? Remember when he went off to college to play basketball? We continued dating for awhile after school. Well, he was my first, the first guy I sucked off I mean. It was new for me and I wasn't really very good at it and I'm not sure I even liked it all that much until one afternoon arranged by him for me with some of his friends. I didn't know at the time his plans and when I found out, I didn't want to do it, not what happened that day, but they did inadvertantly teach me the pleasures of oral sex, about giving it I mean.
"You know how much I love the taste and smell of a man's cock, the feeling of a hard shaft in my mouth, sometimes even a soft one that grows so large and delightfully in my mouth. Some people like the feel of silk or the smell of leather. Not me! So often I wish I could take one in my mouth at night and sleep like a baby suckling it like a pacifier.
"I know you don't understand the thrill of a hard cock twitching when your lips and tongue first touch it, the incredible feeling of it stuffed in your mouth, how good the taste and texture of precum is, or the feeling of a big, hard cock erupting in your mouth as it shoots a load of hot cum deep in your mouth hitting the back of your throat!
"Now, I guess there's a feeling of empowerment that goes with it. It wasn't always that way. I know I told you about this oral fixation I have and how it probably comes from sucking my thumb until my teen years. It's a comforting and peaceful feeling and I have to tell you, from time to time, I still do it. I'm not much into blaming parents; I really hate when people do that. But, I think the strict family environment I grew up in may have contributed to this love I have, almost wanting to worship, and certainly make love to, a man's cock. Maybe that background explains some of my other fantasies as well. I mean, being brought up where anything and everything sexual was taboo makes a young woman wonder about things. I guess if my parents told me something was bad, I just assumed, at least after I got out of high school, it must be good and wanted to try these things for myself. Maybe just part of a natural rebellious nature a person gets when they are told something is wrong, I don't know. Still, there was something holding me back, something that prevented me from giving so freely of myself.
"I guess of everything I've done or will do, nothing gives me more pleasure than sucking a cock, making it twitch in anticipation and the feeling of it exploding in my mouth, filling me with the love juice of a man. Sometimes, I think I get more satisfaction out of it than the guy that comes. I know maybe that sounds strange to you, but it's really true.
"At the same time, I guess this is where my parents come in, it feels better when I'm not in control, when I have no choice, like being forced. I know maybe that runs contrary to the feeling of empowerment, but I could never on my own be that slutty, but, you know, when it comes to certain things, I am a slut! I'm a cocksucking slut, Honey-have been and always will be. When we go to the glory holes and you coax me to take one in my mouth, I do it, but you should just tell me to do it. Push me to my knees and make me take it. Honey, let me be your cockloving slut!
"Anyway, the way it all started was with Rick, actually some of his friends, but he was behind it. During my freshman year of college it was all so new to me, and like I said, I wasn't all that good at it. Just learning I guess. So Rick invited me over to watch some TV, just a quiet afternoon and evening alone. He asked me to meet him at the gym. He was going to be shooting some hoops for practice. He told me if he wasn't there to go down to the locker room, that nobody would be there on a Sunday afternoon. I decided to walk over. It wasn't more than a 20 or so minute walk from my dorm to the gym and it was early October, still kind of warm out, so I just threw on a pair of cut-offs, a white top, sandals and took off to meet him.
"Now I hope this doesn't get you upset, but you know, and you'll see, I didn't really have any choice in was about to happen, at least the part I'm about to tell you about now and hopefully not the second part either. Anyway, when I got to the gym, Rick was nowhere to be found. I made my way down to the locker room and knocked. Some guy I didn't know answered the door. I asked if Rick was there, but the guy said he wasn't, but should be soon. He had to run back up to the gym to get something he forgot and apparently I had missed him, but Rick had told him I would be coming and to let me in until he got back. You know what, he never did show and for some reason he stopped seeing me after that day. Kind of to bad for him because that afternoon changed my life forever and you know what, I think he might have enjoyed the transformation.
"I didn't know the guy answering the door, but peeking inside, I recognized a couple of the guys from the basketball team. The season hadn't started yet, but they would hang around sometimes when I stopped over to Rick's dorm room. Eric, the guy they called 'Animal', was there along with Derek. You remember Derek, the black kid that later was such a star. He was a freshman then, played forward I guess. They were expecting really big things from him even then and if they would have looked in the right place, they would have found something big alright! The guy that answered the door was Jim and the two other guys, friends of Rick's I guess, were Shane and Paul. Shane was a pretty big guy. I think he played football for a year or two but dropped out. He was a bit overweight. Paul, well, maybe you remember him. He played on the football team, on the line I guess.
"I felt a little uneasy going in before Rick got there for some reason, but Animal and Derek were there so I figured it would be okay. Jim seemed friendly enough when he answered the door, Paul looked friendly too. Shane, I don't know, something about him bothered me. Like I say, he was big and, well, he may have played sports, but really he looked more like a biker than anything else.
"Maybe I should have followed my first instinct and not entered the locker room. Jim told me they were watching films and I assumed he meant game films. I was wrong. You remember those movies we've seen at the glory hole when we go down to Parkersburg. Well, there was one like we've seen playing on a screen set up in the darkened room. You know, one of those movies where some cock-hungry cum slut has a bunch of guys jacking off around her while the others take turns fucking her mouth. You know, a guy comes in her mouth but she doesn't swallow the load of cum but spits it in a clear bowl and the other guys do the same thing, either coming on her or in her mouth. It doesn't really matter because it all ends up in the bowl anyway. Then at the end, she picks the bowl up and drinks it down. That's the kind of movie it was.
"The guys were watching and seemed to be enjoying it. I still don't know what it is about guys. For some reason they like to see cum squirting on some woman's face. I'd rather take it my mouth. Anyway, I was going to excuse myself, but Derek told me stay and watch the movie. He told me Rick said I would like it, then laughed. It was that laugh that me a little more anxious, but what was I supposed to do? These were Rick's friends and I knew he'd be there soon. Still, it was strange to be in the locker room with all these big guys watching the movie.
"I have to tell you though, watching the movie started to make my pussy tingle. I don't know, seeing all that hot cock juice squirt on the woman made me kind of hot for some reason. I was really glad the guys didn't know what I was feeling or thinking as I watched; I would have felt so ashamed and embarrassed.
"Well, it didn't take long for that to happen anyway. Derek looked away from the screen and asked me how I liked the movie. I didn't know what to tell him so I simply said, 'Interesting.' It was a pretty stupid comment and maybe a different answer would have changed what was about to happen, although I doubt it. I had hoped that was the end of it. I was waiting for Rick to come back and take me out of there. But Derek spoke up again, 'Rick says you like to suck cock, do you?'
"All eyes in the room now turned to me. The humiliation I felt was matched only by the burning anger inside me about Rick saying anything about what we did and the fear running through my veins by this brazen comment made in front of these men by Derek. 'So,' Derek demanded, 'do you, do you like to suck cock?' I looked back down at the screen watching the woman then back to their waiting eyes. 'Sure,' I said. I didn't really mean it but figured that would appease him and be the end of it. I mean, I could see the bulges in their pants, but they were watching a movie and nobody was going to do anything with Rick coming back so soon and all.
"So anyway, I really did think that was the end of it. I knew Derek and he had always up until then been nothing but a gentleman. For some reason though, Derek wouldn't let it drop. 'So Dawn, do you think you'd like to be the woman in the movie?' he asked. 'I don't know, Derek, what are you doing, why are you saying these things to me?' I asked him. 'I don't think Rick would like the way you're talking and to tell you the truth, you're making me a little nervous.'
"'Rick won't be.' Derek told me. 'In fact, he hasn't even been here.'
"'What do you mean, I'm supposed to meet him here.' I'm sure he could detect the uneasiness in my voice.
"'Well, he's not coming back. Told us to have you in and make ourselves comfortable. You want truth, real truth; the truth is I'd be really comfortable with my dick shoved in your mouth right now and so would these guys.'
"I started to walk toward the door, but Derek jumped up in front of me pulling me to a chair. 'You like Rick don't you?' he asked me, his voice sounding a bit harsher. 'Yeah, I do, I like him a lot,' I told him. 'Then I don't think you should disappoint him,' Derek told me. He continued on about how they were all friends and friends share everything. 'You want to be our friend don't you, Dawn?' he asked me. His voice was a little softer now. 'Yeah, Derek, I want to be your friend, but I want to leave now,' I told him. I waited for answer, but the only one I got was Derek unzipping his pants.
"I tried to get up. I was going to leave, but remember that big guy, Shane, well, he was behind me. He put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me back down in the chair. I know they must have sensed the fear and certainly by now would have all been able to see it in my eyes. I looked around quickly spotting Jim. He seemed so friendly when I first walked in. My eyes appealed to him for help but my heart sank when I heard him ask, 'Who gets her second?'
"Derek moved closer to me taking his black cock out of his pants. He was semi-hard, but even at that, I could tell he had an immense dick. He was certainly bigger than Rick, and he wasn't even fully hard yet. He pushed it toward my face, right toward my mouth. I kept my mouth closed tight and turned my head just as the huge head touched my lips. Shane grabbed me by the sides of the head and turned me back facing the black fleshy head of Derek's cock. 'Open your mouth,' he demanded. Honey, I didn't say a word. Reaching down with one hand, he grabbed my top and ripped it from my body. 'Okay, somebody get her pants off, we're not going to fuck with her anymore, maybe we'll fuck her, but we're not going to fuck with her.' There was a wild-eyed fury to him now. I don't know for sure who it was, but somebody unfastened my cut-offs pulling them down my legs. My panties were torn from my body along with my bra. I sat naked in front of five men feeling isolated from the safety of the outside world.
"'You fucker!' I screamed. I started to say something else, but it was mistake from the very first words. His growing cock pushed into my mouth as I spoke. This well-hung black guy had his cock in my mouth and there was nothing I could do about it. I could feel the swollen veins on my tongue. At the time, I felt kind of detached from everything, like I wasn't there or this wasn't really happening to me. His dick was running in and out of my mouth, but I wasn't moving at all. I think it just pissed him off even more. He took his black piece of meat out of my mouth and undressed. My head still caught in the vice of the hands holding it so tightly. I scanned the room with my eyes and saw the other guys getting undressed.
"Derek was standing in front of me again. His heavy balls were hanging below his blood-filled cock. 'Dawn, we can do this the easy way or we can do it the hard way, it's your choice,' he told me. 'You can suck my cock in your pretty little white mouth or I can drive it in and fuck it hard!' He grabbed my nipples and pinched them.
"It was a strange thing when he did that. A moan escaped my throat. I felt a surge of electricity race from my nipples to my pussy. It was all kind of odd really and I didn't understand it at the time, but it felt so good. I looked up at Derek. There was a sense of delight on his face. He massive cock jutted out above my eyes quivering about like it had a life of it's own. I looked at it not only with fascination, but also nervous anticipation. I remember thinking to myself I couldn't be having these feelings. It didn't make sense. It was only out of fear I was going to go along with them. I figured my only chance of escape was to cooperate now, get out and I was already thinking about what I was going to tell Rick about what happened. He'd make it better. Probably beat these guys up or take me to the police station to make out a report, or more likely, both.
"As his hips moved back toward my face, I relaxed my mouth as best I could. My heart was pounding in my chest, partly in fear, but I have to say, part of it was the intrigue of doing something I knew was so wrong. It was all so strange to me. While I was bracing myself for the oral attack by his engorged cock, a shiver of excitement ran up and down my spine. There was something about the largeness of it that turned me on, but frightened me at the same time. Standing in front of me, he lowered his tool into my mouth, inch by inch, choking it down my throat until his balls rested on my chin. I couldn't believe it was all the way in, maybe the position of my upturned head helped, I don't know. I could feel it continue harden and grow in my mouth pushing against the top of my mouth and the back of my throat.
"I suddenly became aware of the other guys in the room. They were watching me, I knew they were. Here I was, a small town girl, never before having experienced anything like this in my life, my mouth stuffed full with a black man's cock, his heavy black balls pushed against the pale skin of my chin, and these guys are standing there watching. I closed my eyes haunted by the humiliation of the the whole scene racing through my mind.
"Derek started to thrust in and out of my mouth. My mouth was spread wide to let him in, but I still didn't move. 'Fuck my cock, cunt!' I heard him yell. Stan, still behind me, grabbed me by the hair forcing my head forward, then back. I hated him and hated even more the thought of having to suck his cock later, but I knew it was inevitable. Right then, I just wanted his hands off me.
"I reached up with my hands and took Derek's cock, clutching it tight. Wrapped in my fists, I jacked him off while he continued the relentless pounding in and out of my mouth. Stan let go of my hair allowing me to move freely up and down the length of the penetrating cock. All of a sudden I felt a twinge of pain in my nipples. Stan's hands had moved from my hair to my tits and clasping my nipples between his fingers, he was pulling and twisting them. The same feeling I felt earlier came back. My pussy felt like it was a blazing inferno of passion.
"I put my hands around Derek, grabbing his asscheeks and pulling him toward me, forcing him to fuck my face harder. The harder my nipples were pinched and twisted, the harder I sucked the giant dick in my mouth. I could feel his ass start to tighten as he drove his long, fat cock in and out my mouth faster and faster. His cock was pulsating in my mouth now, banging around inside out of control. I may not have had much experience, but I knew he was close to coming.
"He reached down grabbing my hands and knocked them away from his dick. I opened my eyes to see his hand pumping his cock as he continued to force feed it into my now waiting mouth. With his other hand he grabbed the back of my head slamming it against his body as he erupted in my mouth. I could feel the first shot of jism hit against the back of my throat. My mouth was stretched wide taking him inside my mouth trying to milk his cock by contracting the back of my throat and pushing up hard with my tongue trapping his exploding cock against the roof of my mouth. All of a sudden he jerked me by the hair pulling my head back. He continued to shoot his hot sticky, cum on my face. Three more blasts of cum hit my mouth, nose and side of my face. I could hear the guys in the background laughing and applauding as he backed away to survey his work.
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